This is a song in progress. It was actually based on an old short musical piece which I then called “Guitar Bow Piece” because I experimented with playing a guitar with a bow. But I actually really liked the melody and atmosphere of it and it gave me the vague feeling of “opening up”. This feeling was really similar to what I have been thinking about lately.
Since I have been reading “Everyone is an Artist” and “The Ethics of Authenticity”, I started to gain a new understanding about my quest (and the modern quest in general) for living an authentic life. I even started blogging about it. But views from authors like from the books I mentioned, made me realise how much we can become obsessed by self-fulfilment, and finding our true selves, that we can become “locked in our own hearts”. The authors believe that the value of authenticity is beautiful, but they think that nowadays we tend to close ourselves off and care less for causes beyond the self. I myself was really involved in this modern quest for authenticity, and I see it around me everyday. So when having read these books, I wanted to open up a bit more to the world around me. And I think this is important for everyone. This song will be about this process of opening up.
Thanks to many studio visits this week I had the insight that I want to work differently with my music. I want to focus more on the ideas, the composition process and performance. I have spent a long time polishing my latest song “Rainforest Light”. The idea and the creative process of composing the song didn’t take that long, but the mixing and mastering took ages. And mixing is not even my specialty, so the result is definitely not perfect. And what does it give me? Less time for the real thing (the creative process)? Less time/energy to experiment? I like the music to be of high quality, but that could also be a step to take in a later stage, or with people with more knowledge about mixing and mastering. My energy and artistic quality lies in the idea, the composition and performing of my music, mixing and mastering is needed a little bit, but should definitely not have the focus. It can be really frustrating and can kill the idea (at moments when I’m being so perfectionist that I listen to my music 10000 times and get sick of it!). So from now on I will be showing more of my composition and performing. These videos are a basic example of something like that (but a shame that you cannot see what’s happening, because I am right in front of the music devices I use). From now on I will record my music in a much more basic state, and even when the song isn’t completely finished, like this one. I will also play more with the location, performance possibilities and improvisation.