On November 8th 2017 I performed a set of half an hour at Grand Theatre, as part of Sounds of Music festival. First I started with Iets Paars with Desta Matla, then I continued with my own music.
However, afterwards I had a bad feeling about this performance for many reasons. It all started being ill. I caught the flu two days before the performance and my voice suffered from it as well. And I started worrying a lot about it. So I didn’t only feel sick, I was also super stressed out, which really didn’t help. Also on the day of the performance I felt like lying in bed. But I wanted to do the performance anyway, so with this ill and stressed out vibe I started setting up. What then happened in short: I communicated badly with the organisation of the festival, I forgot many things, made bad decisions and carried a negative energy with me. And because of all this, I didn’t even feel like performing. And I think this was audible in my music (together with my weak sick voice).
At first my performance felt like a big failure, and it felt bad. But after a while I started to see a positive side in it. This event made create a list of discovered pitfalls. And I know now that I will try to never do these things again, for my own and my audience’s sake 🙂
- Thinking I can do way too many things myself, not asking for help
- Not listening to my body telling me it’s sick
- Having a way too technical setup
- Not timing my performance, and going way beyond the time limit
- Shifting my gear, even though it doesn’t feel good and it’s risky
- Physically tiring myself the whole day, so that I’m exhausted at my performance
- Not remembering the sound check settings, or having a sound guy do that for me
- Not taking more time to prepare in the space
- Combining a performance with Desta with my own music (it doesn’t go well together)